Learning when to push and when to pull back is an important part of athletic maturity & something I still struggle with a lot. LISTEN to your body and learn to understand when you need to pull out the grit and push through and when you need to put your ego aside to successfully get the best out of your body THAT day. Even if it’s not the most ideal session.Mattie Rogers, olympic weightlifter
Typing these words is an act of defiance.
The last thing I feel like doing right now is writing. Anything.
Because, as has happened many other times in my lifting life, I find myself held prisoner by an uncooperative body (thanks, Covid). I can’t train, and it’s upsetting and depressing.
If you’ve experienced this kind of setback—and nearly everyone has at some point–you know how epically it sucks. Everything’s going your way. You’re feeling strong and poised for big things—only to get shot down by illness or injury and having to start (what feels like) all over again.
No matter how many times I deal with this, I’m somehow still surprised at how much it messes with my head.
For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.Ralph Waldo Emerson
I have a confession to make.
I launched this blog at a really bad time.
As I sit here writing, I’m three weeks out from IPL Drug-tested Worlds in Australia, and two weeks from getting on the plane to Sydney. The intensity of training is ramping up, along with the anxiety that always comes with impending competition.
Work stress also happens to be high at the moment. I have all the other usual stuff in my life (a partner; friends; kids who, though semi-grown, still require some hand-holding; mice in the house; cars that need inspection…).
And let’s not forget the part about being menopausal, which means unpredictable and often disrupted sleep and even more anxiety thanks to the effects of hormone imbalances.
So why in hell did I decide to start a website and blog now?